Confidently Me.

Graduating college and moving onto this next chapter into adulthood is an exciting but scary transition. There’s new opportunities, new people, and new obstacles that are constantly being thrown at you. It can be more than overwhelming, and lately, at least for me, I felt like I was drowning underneath the noise of life.

My sister and I are constantly sharing new music with each other. A few days ago she showed me Sabrina Claudio, an artist she found that she knew I would love. In her song “Confidently Lost”, her sultry voice instantly grabbed my attention, but it was her lyrics that almost brought me to tears. The song isn’t necessarily emotional, but it hit home for me.

I’m alone but I’m not lonely
Comfortably indulging
And trying to get to know me

After each line she sang I just wanted to scream, “Yes! Exactly! Thank you!”. She was singing exactly how I felt. In this stage of life, it is tricky to stay true to self while still figuring out who you are as a person.  I’m starting to see many people my age get engaged or married. And for someone who is currently (very) single, that is difficult to see and not have doubt creep in.

Maybe I’m not relationship material….When is it going to happen for me…? Maybe it won’t….

But I am HAPPY with where I am in life right now!!!! Yes, I’m alone, but I’m definitely not lonely. I’m having the time of my LIFE right now just simply indulging in myself.

I’m trying to get to know, and love, me.

I’m just an outline of what I used to be
Constantly evolving
Steadily revolving

Recently, a very close friend of mine decided she no longer wanted me in her life. It shook me to my core. It made me question myself not only as a friend, but also as a person. I am very loyal, probably to a fault, so it took me a little while to realize that friends are going to come and go, that’s just how life is. The friends I had five years ago, fit with the person I was five years ago. Just like the friends I have now fit with who I am as a person now, and who I want to become. I’m happy to not be the person I was five years ago,

to have grown and evolved into a better me.

I am confidently lost
I don’t need you to find me
You don’t define me
I am confidently lost
I don’t need you to find me
‘Cause I’m not hiding
Anything

And right now, I am confidently lost in loving myself. I am confidently lost in learning to live in the present. I am confidently lost in teaching myself discipline with new things. I am confidently lost in striving to deepen my friendships and relationships. I am confidently lost in strengthening my faith. I’m a twenty-something year old confidently lost in becoming who I am meant to be.

All-in-all, this song came at the perfect time for me. I hope it can shed some light in your life too.


 

 

Make sure to give the song a listen in my Recent Song Favorites below!

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